Crazy Frenzy... Saturday

Wow... O.o for some reason i think everyone is going crazy today.
Its been so effing busy at tesco today.
I clocked in at 12pm to start work. Only to find that the whole shelves r practically empty... So i had to fill them up , ALONE!!!
Well i took like... forever to finish them up... One hour seems like 2-3 hours...
I've been moving so many boxes that i dun even remember wat i moved = =

And my right shoulder ain't really help me much by hurting a lot T.T
Carrying boxes feels worse than being stabbed by a needle.
Tesco's having a crazy promotion today. Peace brand longan r on sales, 3 for only RM10, and lychee, 3 for RM 8.88... So there's so many customer coming in in the noon asking for it, but i saw the palette finished juz minutes after i start work.

Its gonna take a long time before the next batches of longan and lychee to arrive.
So many customers r kinda frustrated and angry...
I guess i can understand their feelings.
Well wat do to... hot items always sold out fast. U have to be quick to get one !!!XD
Well unless u r like me, we keep some boxes somewhere (its a secret) and waited until its time to get off work, then we go get it and paid and go home happily with it.XD
Ok i noe its not fair... But life ain't always fair right ?
And for us, we can't buy it until we r off duty, so i guess its only right for us to kinda have a lil advantage over the demanding customers.

My whole body is aching... Due to the moving of boxes , climbing up boxes, taking items for customers... etc
Well its only for a while, i'm gonna be better tomorrow, I hope...If not, tomorrow's gonna be hell on earth = =
Today's been a crazy day... and there's still one more day to go , lets do my best!!!
I will survive it ...I hope...
Wish me luck so that i can survive tomorrow's crowd ... *finger crossed*

Another frantic day at work....

Well i'm working today.... Lazy though...

I was suppose to pass something to my aunt before i went in to work. But it seems like she isn't coming too early... So i had to ran up to the punch card machine and punch in before i ran back down and continue waiting.

Well eventually i managed to pass it to her before running back up to start work.
As i thought, they have changed the arrangement of my items... again...

Well i had to spend some time looking for my items, identifying them , and locating where my new stocks are placed. So after spending 15-30mins or so, i'm done.

Start my usual work.

Today.. they made a crazy offer - 3 cans of peace brand longan for only RM10
Man.. Ppl are crazy about it, some bought few cans, some bought 20 over cartons
Not cans, but CARTONS!!! Its like... RM40 per carton, so 20 over cartons,
means RM 800++!!!! CRAZY!!!

Chinese ppl can really spend a lot when they need to, though most of the time most r kinda stingy!!! (myself included)

Overall , today's crowd isn't that much. Its gonna get a lot more tomorrow. So better prepare myself. Haiz...

Its only a few 5 more days. Its gonna be over in a blink of an eye.

I wonder wat i'm gonna do if i'm finish with this job ? ... haiz

Well doesn't matter for now, my right shoulder is giving me a hell of a time, it hurts a lot, and it's not helping when i used it to carry boxes, it hurts like hell
T.T Man.. i need a new shoulder.

My right shoulder had been injured before a few years back, and never healed completely ever since, so it still hurts from time to time, I guess carrying heavy boxes made it worse ... Haiz... Nvm

I'll manage it somehow...

I better go get some rest now... Its still early though, i probably might spend an hour more or so playing fb games XD

NIght night, wish my right shoulder will be better tomorrow.

Lazy day~~~

Today, like any other day is juz as plain and dull as ever could be.

Din much happened today. I fetched my sis to school earlier this morning. She said she wanna complete her NILAM at her school library. So i dropped her there.

Then i came back home and watched tv... I'm bored... Dun feel like playing games... Dun even feel like doing anything.
I was suppose to go to the MPPP office today with my business partner. But later he said he has something to do at home , so we din go. I ended up slping during the afternoon, which is something i din do for a long long time.

After waking up around 6pm, i've suddenly realize that i haven't bought daniel's present yet. So i frantically went to QB to buy something for him. A cup printed with the pic of a porche, Hope he'll like it.

I've been living like these ever since i've graduated ... feeling kinda lost now...
Have work tomorrow, so better slp early, kinda lazy.. actually i almost forgot that i'm working tomorrow XD

Well i gotta slp now, good night ^^ Wish me a nice day tomorrow at work.

Another normal day ..

As usual... i have nothing to do .
I went to fetch Wei Fen to work this morning. As usual i let her drive, but her driving skills isn't really improving much , though she is however more adept to my car now.

Well i was once a newbie like her, so i ain't complaining much , i'll try to let her go easy as i can , i noe how pressured it feels to drive when someone is beside u, and ur still not too good at driving.

All i can do is to try to guide her as she drives and hope that she can manage to drive on her own soon.

At night, she told me that today's her last day of work, that means she doesn't have to work with those horrible ppl. XD I'm somehow glad for her.

While on the afternoon i went out to pass my punch card to the auntie who hired me at tesco, she needs it to issue my paycheck. Then i went over to my friend's house to discuss about somethings...

Nothing much happen in the afternoon besides that.

Well as night approached, i went out to the pasar malam at Farlim with my parents.
We walked around looking at things, buying some things, etc...

As far as i can see, today is practically the same as any other day,or is it ?
Vicky's father got into an accident and his fingers were broken , had to undergo surgery to put them back together, she was kinda worried about her father and her bike. (It was a car accident , car hits motorcycle)

Ah Lum also told me something, the reason of her break up with her ex.
I'm happy to noe that she can trust me with that. I'm also thinking about it, can i really wait for her ? will i ever blame her if she breaks up with me ?
Well honestly i'll admit, i dun even noe the answer, i'm juz a human, and i have my flaws, though i'm a good guy, surely i might have some bad days,
But i am convinced however, that i will never ever ever blame her for anything if she breaks up with me, coz i can't, i'm too soft to do so, and i'll most probably take the blame myself.

Well not knowing how the future is, i'll slowly face it as time passes.
I'll try to get to know her more, and see wat to do .
As far as i'll go, i'll let time decide.

For now, wish me luck in trying applying a license tomorrow. XD

Being emo...

Well today with me being lazy, i din go and sell my pens today.

I went out with Wei Fen and Xiao Mei for some window shopping for CNY clothings.
Well all three of us are kinda lazy to go to work today, so we all skipped work together. XD

We walked around Pragin Mall looking for some clothes and shoes. Well i noticed that Wei Fen has a very (kinda) odd fashion taste. She likes light colour jeans (not really a bad choice i think since i'm no fashionista) and string type shoes. XD Its cute and kinda looked good on her. Well i guess everyone has their own distinct taste ^^
Juz like how i love metallic things and leather accessories. ^^

Xiao Mei however, was having a hard time looking for something that suits her liking.
Well at the end of the day, we all din bought anything at all... Well i guess thats y its called window shopping ... XD

Wei Fen later went with her bf , coz her bf wants to buy glasses and she's helping him to choose one. So its left with me n Xiao Mei. Seeing how Xiao Mei is kinda down today, i made a decision to buy her a bracelet, hope to cheer her up a lil. Since she worked 12 hours at Plexus, she's always tired... But luckily she plans to quit after 1 month.

Thats a relief.

Haiz... I'm being kinda emo today... For wat reason i dunno ...
I guess its kinda weird for me to go out with girls shopping and those girls r not my gf... its juz kinda sad... Haiz
Honestly i'll admit, i am lazy to find a girlfriend,yet i still yearns for one. Ironic right ?
Well for now, i'll juz leave it to time... Since even if i'm desperate to get one, i can't get one overnight right ? Feelings r not nurtured in one night ... It takes time to get to noe someone and understands each other and etc...

So for now, wish me good luck in life for the moment, as for my love life, i'll leave it to fate.

Btw, i need to fetch Wei Fen to work tomorrow... Hope i won't forget it XD
Or else, i'm screwed T.T

A night out with girls ^^

I din have work today. Since i only work on fri, sat n sun
So i go on with my normal life. Waking up late, watching some shows, then go out to sell pens during noon, under the command of Ah Lum (pronounced as alarm XD)

After that... well life seems bored. XD

Around evening, i was supposed to go pick up Wei fen for her hairdo at 6pm, then she said its ok her bf is coming to get her. So i went elsewhere to waste my time until around 6.30pm. I go to the industrial zone to pick up Xiao Mei.
She's working in Plexus(seaside). i was having a hard time finding that place ...
Well somehow i found that place at last...
And since it was still early (around 6.50pm, she finished work at 7pm) So i waited for her in the car.

Around 7pm i went out to find her , since i'm not sure if she can recognize my car from a distance (i'm actually a better landmark than my car ^^)
So i picked her up ,then we go over to the hair boutique where Wei Fen is doing her hair. We sat there waiting for her .

Around 10pm.. finally she finished her hairdo... i was hungry like hell... so we went to the newly reopened Teluk Bayan to eat. Well we ate and chatted there for a while before we head home. I dropped them both at their respective houses before i went home.

I'm juz worried for Xiao Mei, since she din bring her phone to work and din really call back home to inform her parents, and her parents ended up calling my phone to talk to her and i guess they scold her... I'm juz worried for now.

Haiz... Besides that , i guess its juz a normal day for me. Albeit the long wait for Wei Fen to finish her hairdo. XD

Anyway, i guess its better for me to take a bath now and go to slp soon.
Wish me good luck tomorrow, and have a nice dream XD ^^

Glad... Achivement

Well finally went through the 1st 3 days of work at Tesco

Its tiring and back-breaking, but its fun.
Well i met a lot of ppl there
Some older than us , some same age as us.

Well today made a new friend, Her name is Vicky. She's from Union High School.
Well our encounter with her is quite funny, she actually lost her entry pass and ended up frantically looking for it around 8pm, juz around the time for her to go back.
So we (me and vincent) helped her to look around for it.
She's selling fruit juice , and we get to drink samples of it ^^ (well that solve our thirty problems)

Today, i went to fetch carin, and she asked me to pick up wei xian too (her bf).
So i went over and picked him up.
Well i guess its never ok for a bf to see her gf is with another guy huh ? even though we're kinda good friends XD

Well who care. I like being with carin, she's fun XD , well too bad she's not interested in me T.T

My life is making a big turn now... So i guess for now everything is still ok and will get better gua...

Regardless of which, i'll juz try my best (try la) and do wateva i can.

Wish me all the best !!! I need all i can get!!!

Tired... Frustrated...

Well the life as a promoter isn't all that boring.
U only have to arrange the items, try to promote ur items to ur customer.
Then fill up the shelves when ur items r getting less.
Thats practically about it.

But no way would my job be so laid back right ?
Well yeah u guessed it right.
Its not.

The management r making our life hard. They always change the layout of their arrangements of items. Haiz...
So we have to move our items around every single day. . . .
Its painstaking annoying and tiring... but its still our job...
So no matter wat, we will have to suck it all up and do wateva they told us to.

Thats life...Follow the leader and u will have something for dinner .
Do not wat ur told to do , and ur bound to meet punishments and failure(wah..so deep)

Well no matter wat, working there is still quite fun, maybe its bcoz i have someone to talk to and spending my boring time with , that way i dun really notice the movement of time. XD

Well its kinda late now, i'm really wanna go to take a nice nap. Since tomorrow i have to fetch carin to work. XD Well she asked me to, and since i'm a nice guy. I'm having a hard time refusing her. ^^ Joking. I'm fine with fetching her, since i have time to have a nice chat with a girl in the morning. Who doesn't want this chance ?

Well wish me have a nice day tomorrow with carin and better day at work. Juz hope the management will let us have a day in peace... Probably not. haiz...

1st day of work.. at Tesco

Its my 1st day of work (officially) at Tesco.

I din really noe wat to expect, as i din really spend a lot of time inside the last time when i was there with Puven.

So i went in, punch my card. And went on looking for my items... I've forgotten what i'm selling ...
It took me a while to find all my items... I have a range of items from can longan to can mushrooms...

So i went on starting my job with opening some cartons of canned food, arranging them on the shelves... then continuing opening another carton... again and again...

Well after a while or so, i've noticed a familiar figure. I went over to the beer promotion section. Its not too far from my section. I found Vincent was also working here. And guess wat he's doing ? flirting around with chicks XD ==

Well at least this time, i have someone to accompany me when i'm bored, today went past really quickly. I guess having a friend around really helps.

I spend more time around his place than at mine. He's selling peanuts...

Well overall, today was a fun day. i had quite a fun time working for once. Arranging items was kinda tiring but fun . I guess i probably be able to work until 7th without leaving half way again . Well i'll try my best.

I'm really tired now, probably will go to slp soon.

Wish me all the best tomorrow and hopefully my work won't be as tiring as today la XD

The end... Finale... R.I.P

Today's Zi Jun's funeral. He's the last one to be buried as the other 5 had been buried or cremated within the last 2 days.

I was late to reach his funeral as i din really noe where his house is located.
I ended up driving round and round, getting lost == i tried to call my friends but nobody answered, Maybe its juz that they din bring their phone along.

Well luckily i managed to find his house somehow. Though by the time i reached there, they've already started the process. I was still lucky as they did announced the Astronomy club to come forward and pay him last respect. So i came forth as a astronomy member. ^^ I finally got a glimpse of his picture, and his sis.

I guess the family of the deceased had a hard time, coz i can see most of them have swollen eyes, meaning that they had cried a lot. I guess its not easy to lose someone close. I've experienced that twice over the last 3 years. 1st was when i was sitting for PMR, my maternal grandfather passed away, again was when i was sitting for SPM, this time its my paternal grandfather that passed away. There's one thing that occurs in both death... both of them died in my year of government exams. Maybe they both sacrificed themselves to bless me during my exams... Hehe


Tomorrow i'm gonna start my work finally... I feel so lazy now... Haiz.. but then again i shouldn't really complain. I got a job that only requires me to work on Fri, Sat and Sun. And it pays well. And its a simple job though u r required to stand for 8 hours. Even so its a easy job. But its a one-man job. that means i'm alone... again

Man.. I should really start looking for jobs that have colleagues, working alone is really bad for my health ... I will start thinking of weird things if i'm bored...
Its gonna make me go crazy someday~~~

I'll try to endure through these boring 9 days of work(3 weeks) and probably enjoy my CNY. After that, maybe i'll go look for a job in the IT sector... I'll probably learn a lot if i can work as a technician of some sort.

Well anyway , its still a long time till then. Wish me the best for my work tomorrow.
I really need it~~~ ^^

Busy day... Sad...

Today is the day for both Brendon's and Ee Zhang's funeral procession.

Today's crowd was significantly larger than yesterday's.

Brendon's procession starts at 11am while Ee Zhang's at 2pm

So everyone went over to brendon's before following the procession to batu gantung.
(its also where ee zhang is placed).

So its kinda a smooth day. But i really turn dark a lot after standing in the sun these few days...Haiz...

Xiao Mei woke me up this morning around 5am... just before she goes to work. Haiz. kinda worry about her doing her new work in the factory. She's doing kinda fine now.
But its only the FIRST day of work. Who noes about tomorrow...?

Well i can only wish her the best and pray for her ^^

I went out with her tonight. Its my 1st time going out with girls at night. She's the 1st one i went out at night with. XDXD Its kinda weird. We went to QB before ending up at her sis's part-time job office listening to some product demos.

After that, i sent her home, we sat in the car chatting for over an hour.. Weird huh?
We've barely known each other for 2 weeks, and we very close now. Well not really that close. But still , u understand.

Its very weird when a girl ask u to massage her, grab ur hand (nothing special) and go out at night with u right ?...

Haiz... too lazy to think about it now.
I'm going to slp now, i'm super tired now...

Nitez...

Wish me a good night slp and tomorrow will be a better day!!!

Tired.. Lack of slp...

I've been really lacked of sleep these whole week. Everyday wake up early and sleep in late. Doing all these useless things...

Yesterday i went to Jason's funeral. There were a lot of students that came to pay their final respect. The whole procession took quite a while.

Everyone follow the procession until Eden bakery before they took the bus back. Either to Batu Gantung or back to CLHS.

I went back immediately after following them to Eden.

Today there's gonna be 2 more funerals. Haiz... I wonder which 1 am i going to ...??

Wish all of them may rest in peace and god bless them.

Dedication to the Victims of the Dragon Boat Tragedy

I hereby dedicate this post of mine to the ppl involved with the dragon boat tragedy

No matter if you are a friend, family or even the siblings and girlfriends of those victims.

We will all remember this tragedy forever and ever, and they will always live in our heart forever and ever. Personally i won't forget this ever!!! Since its my birthday, and sometime bad happened to my juniors, though i know none of them, still feel bad and sad for them.

To the victims : Mr.Chin Aik Siang (28) (teacher), Jason Ch'ng (17),Cheah Zi Jun (17),
Brendon Yeoh, (17) Goh Yi Zhang, (17) and Wang Yong Xian, (16).

I pay respect to each and everyone of you, you will always be in our hearts !!!

R.I.P. May god bless all of you!!!

A solemn birthday...

I kinda knew something bad happened today. Coz i woke up with a bad feeling.

When i was out alone (boring~~), my mum messaged me saying that someone from CLHS had drown during the dragon boat training. I was like... shocked.. then i started messaging my friends to know about the situations...

Looks like the situation is bad... REALLY BAD...

A teacher had drowned, one student drowned too, while another 4 still missing.






Haiz... I sincerely offer my condolescence to all of the victims family and friends.

I hope that all efforts are not in vain, and that they can be found soon !!!

All should try to pray for all of their safety, and as for the deceased , lets all pray for them to rest in pest and serenity!!!

May god bless all , and guide us in this time of darkness!!!

Wish all the victims can keep their hopes high, and wish for the missing students to be found soon !!!!

R.I.P Birthday..... haiz...

Its gonna be the most unforgettable birthday of my entire life!!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY to me and Jovene.

Its the time of the year again.

I'm finally 18!!!

Another stage of life has just began, its time to embrace and walk on. ^^

Jovene, HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!

Happy birthday to me !!!

- I do hope later i'm going out with someone, though its most likely i'm going out alone. :(...

Well regardless, i'm still happy today, coz a lot of friends send me b'day wishes.

Wish me a happy happy birthday!!! may my own wishes come true!!!!

40-hours non stop....

Well friday there was a eclipse, so i brought a friend of mine (girl) to my school to observe it. I met my primary classmate Chaw Yeh there, as well as other clhs ex-students. We kinda observed the sun, its kinda fun. Seeing the sun slowly being eaten.XD XD

I only managed to get a pic using my phone, but the image was so damn SMALL... I should've brought my other camera. Haiz...

Regardless, saturday is the orientation day for co-curricular activities. And the astronomy club haven't actually prepared anything yet. So i ended up helping them out,
ending staying overnight in the school. We ended up staying up all night last night doing everything, and then i went home around 5.30am to take a bath and print some documents and articles.

Everything was in chaos for a moment, the classroom is not prepared yet, no one is here to help, short-hand everywhere!!!

Everything was over by 1pm. Then they had a review but its over b4 i came. Then i started a review myself. Haiz... I dunno wat i've done. I might be kinda hot-headed at that time. But i guess i can't really take it out on them. I kinda regret doing it now. :(...

-Chun Keat : I'm sorry , i didnt really mean to say those things out in front of the juniors, I just felt kinda ...dunno wat to say. Sorry again.


After that.. its almost 30hours of no slp, i still go to daniel's house to paint his basement, (i noe u think i'm crazy right ?)
Well after finishing painting everything, it was night, i reached home around 8.30pm. Then my friend Wei Fen called, she asked me where my house is, she said she has something for me, so i ended up taking the bike to meet her at the CIMB bank.

She bought me a CAKE!!! A cake!!! I'm SOOOOOOOOOOO HAPPY!!!!

Well its really touching... i never really expected anyone to remember or prepare something for me. I'm so happy...^^

Anyway... Its so damn tiring... So i slept quite early last night.

I'm still tired though...XD

Wish me a nice day tomorrow.

Nice Guy?!?!?!

Life as a nice guy isn't really that pleasant.

Sometimes u have to answer calls in the middle of the night. A girl calls and said she can't slp, so u'll have to talk with her, bore her to death (XD) and finally make her slp again.

Sometimes u r require to drive ppl around. Girls call u to pick them up to work , to pick them out to buy some things, to meet their boyfriends, etc

Sometimes u r needed to give a lot of advice. Fashion advice (my fashion sux),hairstle comments, work ideas, etc

Sometimes u may have to listen to them complain. They complain about how their boyfriend put their job in front of them, they talk about their jobs that they hate, they talk about their life career, they can possibly talk about any thing possible.

Sometimes u may need to take some actions. Drastic actions r sometimes needed for something drastic. They need help ,and u'll be there.

As far as i'm looking now, it looks like the above written is actually describing myself, since i am the NICE GUY. well i think i am. I'm always free to help any girls encounter. I'm always free to be their driver. I'm always free to be their executor, doing wateva they ask.

Even being a nice guy there's a disadvantage... Nobody really wants u, u r juz wat u r. A nice guy whom nobody would love, since nobody wanna lose this nice guy as a friend. Haiz...

Well i noe being a nice guy is hard. Even so , i still wanna be the nice guy that everyone needs, this is who i am , n this is how i will continue be. Wish me luck in doing so and may luck be with me for success!!!

Tired... Fun... Scared...

Today was one hectic day for me.
I went and picked up Wei Fen and Xiao Mei, at their respective houses around 9.30am.
Well i went and picked up Wei Fen 1st, since i dunno where Xiao Mei lived yet.(now that i do... hehe XDXD)
Then she guide me to Xiao Mei's house. She lives in an apartment around Relau. The entry to her apartment is kinda narrow, with cars parking on both side of the road, and not to forget to mention, it is a dead end, which means i have to find make a 3-point turn to go back out. Haiz... That was a hard one. XD

Well then i fetch them both to Giant, since they work there,today is Xiao Mei's last day working there, she can't stand with her "Sifu", always scolding her for the smallest mistakes. Whereas for Wei Fen, she will be feeling kinda lonely with her friend quitting now, but she can't leave just yet, since she managed to get one customer, and haven't got her commission yet (her officers said it will be given somewhere around Feb), thats kinda cheating... Haiz... well every company is almost the same in this regard... Haiz.... All i can do is to wish her all the best, and survive until she receive her commission.

Well that was only one part of my day... Carin asked me out. So i went out with her. But i still have to pick up Wei Fen and Xiao Mei after they finish work. So here's the big problem. Well before that, i went and picked up carin, but she's not ready yet, so i ended up entering her house only to find ... she's eating her lunch. Well thats ok, then her mum asked me to eat some. She said SOME... but ended up giving me a big bowl (saying that boys can eat a lot)...Haiz...Well somehow i managed to finish that bowl of noodles, even though i had a full lunch at home. Then she told me, she was suppose to meet up with Wei Xian earlier, and have lunch with him together (well that was a suprise on his part), carin didn't know about it, so we ended up accompanied him to eat at Azuma (his work place = =)... I have no comments about that.

After finishing eating, then we went around walking around aimlessly, window shopping. Then i finally met my last year's form teacher, Mdm Oon,she owns a World of Feng Shui shop in QB. I came here so many times and never saw her , so i guess i was really lucky to have met her there at that time. XD
After walking around, we made a decision to watched a horror movie. (we all never watched horror movie in the cinema before). Its called Paranormal Activity. After buying the tickets we walked around wasting time in Borders looking at some books.
Then we saw Hoay Wen who was alone buying some things, then we asked her if she wants to join us for the movie, she said ok. So they went and buy the ticket for her while i went and pick up Wei Fen and Xiao Mei because they called to say they've finished work and coincidentally at QB now, so it kinda saves my time.

Well only for a bit, since the highway was jam...== so i ended up spending lot more time then i expected, but somehow i managed to reach there in time , well just barely. Then we went in for the movie.

The movie was plainly boring, since its a real recording of a couple's life and the paranormal activities they are facing. But the scary part about this is its real and it really happened. Though the movie was kinda boring, as the paranormal activities increases, it got kinda scary. Until the end... *shivers* well i'll leave it to others to tell. ^^

Overall, i had fun today. Since i wasn't planning to go out except sunday... but then hehe, i'm still happy. Its the 1st time i watched horror movie. And... Well because of that, Carin couldn't sleep last night, so i ended up staying up with her all night long, talking on the phone, until she finally falls asleep, or i fell asleep 1st,well i dunno , XD i'll ask her later haha

Its been so long since i last chatted with carin on the phone for so long, i'm kinda really happy. I guess i'm really a blessed guy with luck ^^

Well its gonna be a tired day today, so wish me have a nice and safe driving and avoid falling asleep while driving. XD ^^ Wish me luck.

Determination ...

For some reason whatsoever, i'm surrounded by nice ppl, who supports me, and helps me. So for that reason, i'm more than determined to continue my boring job.

Though Ai-yin said, I shouldn't continue it if i hate it, well i hate it, but i still love it, the fun part of the job is in the interaction with the customer (err.. only about for 2-5 ms ==) The boring part is the point that i have to stand there doing nothing (after arranging the stocks, counting the stocks, and have my daily rounds)
Its gonna be an agonizing 8 hours again. Lets see how fast time moves this time.

I've found a substitute to stand in for me this week, since i've made a decision not to work this week. NO MATTER what, hmmm, if i have the same kind of determination when going to work... haiz...

I'm going to follow that substitute along with the auntie that employed me, to understand my job on Friday, and on that day , there's also SOLAR ECLIPSE!!!
I've never ever observed one, so i'll try to observe it this time. I can't wait... I'm EXCITED....

Haiz... XDXD

Well my friend will be coming back from his holiday trip to Australia soon. He's one of the partners in my stationery business. We'll probably start some new ideas after he came back. Since i'm in the executive department, and he's in monetary department (just for your info ,those departments are plainly just names with no whatsoever meanings)

I'm trying to brainwash myself to be able to endure the 8 hours boredom, and endure 3 weeks but only 9 days of work.. ONLY 9 days. How much can it get better? Why should i complain??? So i won't , at least i try not to, hopefully this time, there will be more chinese or indians stop trying to speak BM to me, though its not like i hate BM , its just kinda hurts my ego. I prefer to use other languages, preferably english.

whatever it is, i'll try to enjoy this week to the fullest, so , wish me luck again.
I'm gonna need all i can have ^^.

Dissapointed...

Once again i'm in a dilemma... Y am i so unlucky (in this case its actually lucky) to always be in a dilemma ??? haiz...

Well, my mum called me during the afternoon, told me that there's a job offer at Tesco, Ah Chim asked for me de. So i was like, kinda grateful and happy, but then i was still uncertain. Until my dad called me, by then i was really going nuts, i was thinking very hard about that job. Then somehow i broke down, i ended up crying in the car. (I was at my stationery supplier's shop) Haiz... Its been a while since i cried, And i guess this is the 1st time in 2010 ^^ Not a very good start again. I guess all those events happening around me and the emotions piled up inside of me finally got the better of me and broke down. Similarly, it made me remembered that 6 yrs ago, i broke down... But not in tears , i went overdrive into berserk, i mashed up Liang Sun like he was a sandbad (a good one too ^^).And 6 yrs later, i broke down again, this time , in tears and despair.

As i've said recently, i'm really a lucky guy and a blessed one ^^ I'm surrounded by nice ppl, that helped, cared and even supported me all the way. I know i'm a quitter. I always quit when i face hardship, that's how i am. And now, I've already accepted that job, but to ensure i will persevere to the end, I made a promise to myself, and to another friend, that I will do my best till the end. If i were to give up half way, then she will ignore me forever. With that, well i guess i kinda have a goal now right ? And there's also another thing, if i were to work all the way to the end (which is juz a day beofre CNY) i will probably earn (RM65*12) around RM720 plus the RM300 i got from the previous job, I have roughly about RM1k to spend.

I've already planned out a budget distribution of the money.
RM300 will be used to buy daily items for the old folks home as a tribute to my deceased grandfather.
Then probably i'll use RM450+ to buy PS2, then RM60 to buy the Wifi adapter for my sis, and the remaining money to be used to upgrade her comp, but with wateva that is left, i doubt i can do much to upgrade her comp. ==

Well, now that i have a goal to achieve, a punishment awaits me if i failed, i think i have set up my trap to force myself to persevere this boring job. I'll do my best as the money intended in not for myself, but for my family. For some reasons, i like spending money on other ppl, and rarely spend much on myself. Though I said rarely, when i do spend, i'll spend a big sum of money. Haha.

But now i'm having a problem, there's a solar eclipse this friday, and some girls might come to our observatory to watch, so i planned to go too. And saturday there's also the orientation day for my ex-school's co-curriculum activities orientation and exhibition day. And well sunday is a special day for myself. ^^

So i'm kinda packed this week, So the auntie gave me an allowance which , allows me to find someone to stand in for me for those 3 days, i'll have to pay them of course. But the problem now is, I can't find anyone!!! Everyone is either had found a job or already started schooling. Damn this sucks, well i have to try asking them again tomorrow. I still have a few ppl i can try to contact. Lets juz hope i can find someone to stand in for me, or else i've gotta give up seeing the solar eclipse and the girls !!! T.T and probably miss my last chance of joining them to attract new members... haiz, I've already told the auntie that i've confirmed that i'm not working on this sunday, since its the most important day in my life.

Well regardless of which, i'll juz have to try and try again, if really can't then i have no choice but to give up on some things... haiz life's sucks...

Anyway, juz wish me that everything will be smooth and everything will fall into their place nicely with no problems. And i will be able to endure this boring job until CNY. I really wish to change myself.. Let's do my best!!! (even though i hate changes)

Last day of work...

Its my last day of work, since i've already told auntie that i'm quitting, but somehow i feel so sad the whole day, even though i hate this job, a part of me actually liked this job.

Ok, i mean this job isn't that bad, You are required to cook some pasta throughout the day for customer's sampling. The amount is decided by you. You will be paid RM50 per day plus commissions for every item you sold. Looking at what i wrote, i bet you are thinking... thats a really good job right ?

Well think again. After checking the stocks and cooking the pasta, here comes the real AGONY... I am required to stand at my booth serving sample pastas for customers, and when there's no customer , i have nothing to do. Just standing there , staring at blank space. Thinking of things, a lot of things, my future, my relationship, my friendships, my lil cute baby niece, and my agonizing job =.= Put that aside, i'm still having fun in my job.

So i tried to enjoy myself to the fullest today, since its my last, I am having the slight relunctance of leaving work today. I spend a lot of time looking around the store, and found there's a lot of creepy spiders (I HATE SPIDERS!!!) Then i spend time looking around the place where i'm stationed at, there's a lot of party wares and maggie noodles ^^ But the fun part of today is, that i made 2 new friends, whom are slightly older than me, They came over to my booth (they are stationed at the 2 lanes right beside mine), and asked if they can try the pasta i made, and they even traded something from theirs, One of them is selling cookies, the famous koala bear cookies from Japan, (heck its so damn expensive, but i ended up buying 1 box too T.T)
Another is selling chewing gums. Specifically , the sugar-free chewing gums. So we ended up hanging out together during work. (Means, we went over to each other's lane and stand there chatting). The guy selling the cookies is a final year student at INTI studying E&E (Electric and Electronic), which is something i'm interested in. But then again, that courses is slightly a bit mixed , it has a lil bit of this, and a lil bit of that... End up will turn me into Jack of all trades again... So i'll still have to think about it , whether to take this course or maybe other alternatives.

Spending my time with them, makes me so happy. Also i almost forgot to state, Wei Fen and her friend (whose name not known, T.T) came by and visited me earlier before they start their work. So we had a nice short session of conversations, and it really made my day. Back to them, well through them i realized that we can actually trade our sampling items to another promoter for their sampling items ^^. So i then filled some sampling cups with pasta and went of trading with a few promoters around my area. Well mostly just sell snacks. But it tasted quite nice. I also got hold of a few informations about Tesco hiring promoter. I've contacted my friends about it, they live near by there, so it will be easy for them. I'm too lazy to drive all the way there to work. (Call me lazy if you want , but i dun care)

For once, today , i never really bothered looking at my watch , since i'm not bored anymore, i'm having fun with them , chatting with them , looking them selling their things, and looking Wei Fen from afar (she's working on the outside area, not inside the giant hypermarket sections). And we exchanged some hand signals from time to time when we are bored. Similarly, today, for the 1st time, i've notice how fast time moved, otherwise ,it will be such a slow crawl, i guess like the saying goes, time flies when you are having fun. And honestly, I'm really thankful to both of them , Kok Pin and Evonne for coming over to approach me, made me notice that i'm surrounded by friendly ppl, Its me that is being unfriendly, but today i changed. But i guess its too late. Also i really am grateful that wei fen and her friend came over to say hi, since they really help to boost my morale for the day. So, Thanks again !!!

Overall, its been a pleasant experience working at Giant as a pasta sauce promoter. Even though i only worked for 5 days. (2 weeks, since i only work on fri, sat n sun)
I've learned a lot (like how to clock a punch card = =) learn how the system of a hypermarket works, looking at how they offload products, and most importantly gaining new friends.

As a side note, for the days i've been working there, i felt that it is necessary to note this fact, most ppl that approached me are Malays, and if others were to approach they will often than not use BM to talk to me, And i, will automatically replied them with BM as well. I've been wondering do i really look like a Malay, i noe i'm dark. . . but thats all there is to it. Haiz... Whatever. . . i dun care.

I'm used to it now. And its really getting late now. Its been a while since i slp so late. I better stop here for today.

Wish all the best of luck for tomorrow's day. Let everyday be a nice day and a new start ^^

Conclusion...

Its finally time ... The last day of my work.

I will kinda miss my work tomorrow... or technically today. Since its passed 1am.
My job isn't really that boring... Here's somehow a brief intro to my work.

11.00am - Clock in for work. (I'm always punctual ^^)
11.05am - start going around checking the amounts of all items i have for opening.(my items are fries, wedges, peas n mixed veges, and also pasta sauces.)
12.00pm - Finish checking all the stocks. Start to set up my lil stall ^^.
12.15pm - Stall is set up, going to the store to cook the pasta.
1.30pm - 1st batch of pasta is cooked and ready to serve.
2.30pm - 1st batch of pasta probably finish. Its time to cook the 2nd batch
4.30pm - After going through 2-3 batches of pasta, its time to clean up.
5.00pm - Break time. Going home for early dinner.
6.00pm - Back to work. Cooking the last batch of pasta for the day.
7.00pm - I've been waiting for this time for the whole day. Time to pack up and go home!!!. Start cleaning everything and storing everything in the storeroom. Also doing another round of checks for closing of stock.
8.00pm - Go home for a good night's rest

Thats practically wat i do the whole day. Well i summed it all up. During the pasta servings, i will face with no customers which means i have nothing to do then i will be bored (thats the whole reason y i quit) Then i started doing some weird things, like helping arranging all the items that aren't really under my jurisdiction. Blah.. Who cares? I'm doing something at least, that way i won't be bored n dun start thinking something negative. (My life's been haywired for the moment)

After saying all that, i kinda have a melancholic feel about my decision to quit.
Since i do have a bit fun , no doubt there's a whole lot of time wasted juz standing there doing nothing.But still kinda fun, i get to talk to customers... And i kinda enjoy ppl speaking to me in BM (i'm crazy d !!!)But it kinda hurts to hear lil children call me Uncle, or Pak cik, or 叔叔. I'm only 18 for good sakes!!! (well technically i'm still one week away from being fully 18.) Haiz... I'm getting old d..

Regardless of which, after i finish tomorrow's job, i'm sure i will feel bored at home. The question is, wat else can i do ??? Suggestions anyone ???

Maybe not, i guess i will have to find something to fill in the time, Daniel juz asked me to help paint his room or house. *gasp* Can i handle it ??? Who cares.. I'll juz make things happen when it all come along.

I'll probably cry tomorrow night after finishing my job... Since i have a sad feeling today when i went home after work.. Well i guess i have to see for tomorrow. ^^

Wish me all the best tomorrow, and i'll try to enjoy my last day of work to the fullest ^^. Ganbateh!!!


P.S. : Kim tat, i noe ur reading this, Happy birthday bro. Ur already 18, so ur ready for some new chapters in life, but juz be careful since now is the time where we might be making some big mistakes and will cost our future...But who cares about that ? haha, Anyway juz enjoy ur birthday ^^ 誕生日御目でと. My best friend ^^

Finally... Decisions...

Its been almost a week since she said that life-changing words to me. (or rather life-changing sms XD) She haven't replied me since. And i wonder if she will ever reply me.

I've been thinking a lot. ( i have a lot of free thinking time during my job) And nothing good is in my mind. Honestly, all negative thoughts. Man its kinda like poisoning my brain. Sooner or later i will really go crazy and into a depression.

Who cares about that ? Right ? Back to the main topic, using the free time i had on my job. I thought over things carefully. About how much i hate my job. No offence, but its really a lucky thing that i had this job. (I never had to go for an interview. She's a friend of my aunt) And it pays SUPER well!!! I guess you might be wondering, AM I CRAZY to really think of quiting this job?!?!

Well I AM!! I've already called that auntie saying that this week will be the last week i'm working (and this is only the 2nd week) Call me a useless guy or whatever u wan, i'm fine. Since i've already been like this since i've born. Though most horoscope states otherwise. I am suppose to be a hardworking, strong-willed person. It turns out i'm actually quite the opposite. Unless certain circumstances, which i will work hard to the extreme and will do it until i finish it or die doing it ^^
Well if ur really curious, that circumstances are the requests by girls that i've promised to do , n will finish it no matter wat ^^

Hehe (dun kill me)

Enough of that, there's also another thing that i have finally made a decision after thinking for a long time. The solution to the problems i've been having all week long. I'm still unsure if she really liked me, but i do noe that i really liked her. And for that reason , i've decided to wait until everything has calmed down. And maybe start over. If fate allows, i'll juz start of like we 1st started, as friends, slowly progressing, If we really are meant for each other, i'm sure we will overcome this obstacle. Though i do wonder, will she or me still remember each other few months later ? Hmm... Somehow deep inside me, for a person who juz gave me her first kiss (hope its really her first), its not possible for her to be actually playing with my feelings. Since it required a lot of courage from her side to do it. But then again , i still dunno a lot of things about her. For now, lets juz let things slowly calm down. No use fussing like a wuss doing nothing but whining all day and night to my friends, I bet they r really frustrated to see me like this. (There goes my perfect impression T.T ) I'll like to take this opportunity to apologize to everyone, especially Ai-yin, carin,Hui ting, and Xin Yi, for listening to my whinings n complains and even tried to help me out. I thank all of you for ur suggestions, i will try to solve this problem by myself, hopefully as soon as possible, since i know myself best, i won't let this problem rest from my mind unless it is already solved. So i guess more mental torture for me ahead T.T ... *sigh* Life...

Again i like to say, i'm really a blessed guy who sometimes juz doesn't noe how to appreciate. I got a good job which i'm throwing away. I have a nice bunch of girls friends, whom i might scare them away if i dun change my stinking pessimistic attitude now. Not every guy is lucky enough to even have one girl friend willing to listen n help out, what is there to say when i have 4 n more thats helping ^^

Haha, well its getting late now, even though i'm saying i already quitted the job, but i still have to finish off this week's sessions. So 2 more days of work to go.
Wish me all the best !!! ^^ Its time to shine and lets do our best^^

Life changed ...

Again, i'm feeling reluctant to go to work... Do i have to be like this everytime i'm going to work the next day ???

Sloth is a sin. Its one of the deadly sins that are not really deadly at all. It will slowly consume u, from the inside out. I guess mine is already rotten on the inside. Since i'm getting more n more lazier to do anything, including housework. So that means work is also another i'm going to start to hate.

I noe i shouldn't be complaining , but then again i have no one to complain it to. Aiyin is busy with her work, i wouldn't want to bother her anymore. Kt is busy with his busy life, i'm starting to think of him as a male version of alyssa, carin is not really the person to find when u want someone to listen, she tends to drag u away from ur main point ^^ (no offence carin.) But then again thats her good part, she will always drag me away from the negative thoughts i have in my mind. So does aiyin... As for kt... i wonder... XD

I'm already a blessed guy, what am i asking for ??? Dunno , maybe i juz want somebody who love me dearly, with all her heart, and be there for me when i need her. Ironically, i'm always there for everyone except for myself, Haha. Hmm, why is that ?
I'm as stable as a mountain, thats wat most of them said, since i'm the one they also depend on in times of need. So i have to be strong. But i guess even the strongest mountains faces some earthquakes from time to time. Nothing is perfect.

I noe its kinda bad to say this, but then again i guess the reason for the failure in my relationships are maybe bcoz i wasn't really into them in the 1st place. If i were... will i still be going out with other girls ??? (Going out as in juz hanging out as friends, not dating them) Hmm , maybe. But who cares. I'm still me, and i guess i'm still quite popular among the girls, even though i dun have the looks, but i'm always a 24/7 gentleman (pls dun hit me XD) though i do have my fair share of bad temper.

Funny thing happened recently, i met a few girls online a few days ago. Apparently i met them all thru facebook. One of it is vanessa, a form 4 student currently studying in Phor Tay high school. I met her in person today at her school ^^. Another is Janessa (i noe ... its kinda confusing for myself too)she's a girl form malacca. She's now only form 3. She kinda funny ^^ a fun person to chat with when she's free.
Lastly, there's cassandra... she's a form 5 graduate like me, from pcghs. She's really a funny girl to chat with too. Her intuition is SUPER accurate. So accurate that it could really scare you. And she also said most guys tend to run away from her after getting to noe her. Hmm , i'm willing to take that challenge, since i'm sure i won't run away. (Y should i? She's a girl, a funny one too, its too good to leave)
And she's also very cute. Thats more the reason not to run away. (ok that made me sound like a "Chi ko") Well i guess god is pitying me after i'm been dumped :(
I guess i'm thankful to him in one way. ^^

My life is slowly changing... And for me, a stubborn guy who hate changes , its gonna take me a lil while longer to face with the changes... I'm hoping that these changes is for the good and the opposite. I'm slowly accepting the fact that in life not everything will go your way.

For now, i'll juz do wat i can , Wish me all the best in wateva i'm doing , and hopefully i can survive 3 months of my job (though i'm only working on fri,sat n sun)
XD ^^

Fooled again ...

Once again, i guess i've juz been fooled. . .

I asked myself, Why am i so easily blinded and finally being fooled again and again?

Answer : I dunno. I guess its juz that nature of mine to trust ppl easily in real life and in virtual life. I guess thats to compensate my bad looks, this at least made ppl easily approach me. Although i let out some "Do not come near me" aura sometimes, once ppl get to know me, they know i am dependable , anytime, everytime. Just ask any of my friends, they will proof it.

Since i'm such a simple guy with a complicated mind. (weird combination huh ?) i tend to overthink a situation, coming up with multiple possibilities (feels like a quantum supercomputer ^^) Even the most simplest things i'll end up making it super complicated. I guess thats a bad things to do. Nevertheless , with this brain of mine, i manage to solve a lot of problems, here n there, for others too, but never for myself. Why ? Coz its always harder to help ourselves.

And i guess i'm also lazy to care about my own things, i neglect my safety most of the time, i neglect my cleanliness most of the time too, i neglect my stomach for once in a while, i basically neglected a lot of my basic necessities. Hehe.
I'm amazed i'm still alive n well being. I'm also amazed how weird i'm acting now.
No crying, not much change from the normal me. I guess i grown up a bit in this sense. Hehe XD.

A lot of things happened these few days, and it all finally came to an end, I finally realized i've been fooled yet again. But somewhere inside me, i still feel that this ain't true. I guess i'm juz trying to fool myself to cure the pain.

Whatever is might be, the uncertain future will always be there, and the road of life is a road we must all walk down someday, Right now, i've fallen, resting on the side , waiting for recovery, it might take some time, but it won't take forever before i continue on my road of life.

Wish me all the best and get well soon. ^^

Myself...

For some reason i felt like writing this... I feel like to express all the dissatisfaction of myself n others.

1st of all, i'm a coward. I'm always afraid to try new things, i think a lot before i do things, ended up losing the 1st chance of success in doing that, n then end up feeling very down coz i thought too much. This is really a major issue of my own. I was suppose to go out to set up the pen stall at Phor Tay high school today and yesterday too , but guess wat? i'm still sitting here doing nothing juz thinking of the possibilities of wats gonna happen ? but whats the use of thinking that ? if there aren't any action taken, then it will still remain a thought, an empty thought.
Arghhh, i really dunno about myself. Not juz dealing with my business, but even also my life, i'm now afraid to try to approach her, thinking that it may do her more harm than good, n i asked my friend who lived nearby to try to help me approach her (but thats kinda hard, nevertheless i still wanna take that risk)and get me her house phone, so that carin can try to call her , again bcoz i'm afraid to call her worrying that her dad will juz close my phone. Looking back at wat i wrote i really felt sorry for myself, i looked down upon myself, always worrying of the possibilities that are not necessary possible. I always say : This is a gamble of life and death , the truth is i'm not that brave n i'm more scared to lost my life than others , juz call me a coward. I always run away from problems (my problems)but apparently i embraced others problem n managed to solved most of them. So i guess i'm juz another hypocrite. damn.. i hate myself now. Am i really that much of a failure ?

I always look so strong from the outside but i'm extremely fragile on the inside, coz wat i have is only a small string of hope, it took me a long time to rebuild that hope, n now its gonna break again, i'm gonna fall into the infinite abyss of darkness if i dun try to solve this problem now. Luckily i'm not studying anymore, or else it will really affect my studies. Coz i can't concentrate at all. I'm juz worrying about her most of the time. Well friends already commented on my cowardly act now. n I'm trying to find a way to overcome it. If my friend really could get a hold of her no. I'll be more than happy to try to assist carin in calling her. I really like to noe is there a possibility for us ? if there is, i will grab it and never let go again. If there isn't , then i will surrender myself to the darkness, never to see light ever again. Since there aren't many reason for me to stay in the light anymore. Friends are leaving , going off to chase their dreams, it is at this stage of life that u think, i never knew friendship is gonna be so weak. Regardless of that, deep inside my heart, i hope and pray that all members of 6M class will always be together forever. Even after i'm gone, hopefully others will take control n organize these events for them. Maybe its not gonna be this year or next year but decades after that, most of them will be married , some may even have children, and some may have succeeded in their life, and many infinite possibilities. I do hope i will be able to remain in contact with most of them. Since my role as a bridge is almost over, coz they will all be flying to other country or states, far beyond my reach . . . even so, i as a shadow will always follow them wherever they go, as long as they remember us, i'll always be the shadow in service.

After feeling so unrest and sorry for myself, its time to get up n face the problems, with the uncertain future that i hold on, with the fragile friendships we are hold on, and the wavering feelings between her n I, these are juz obstacles that life set up for us, and it is testing me from various angle, ad i have strengthen myself from those angles to become a better man, a stronger man , a strong-willed man, no longer sulking or whining or moping over some sad events, neither will i be an emo person. I will stand strong to myself , supported by my pillars. These pillars represent the friends i have around me that gave me the support i need whenever i'm down or not being myself, since i rarely showed the sad side of me to others except to some of the closest friends i had. Well over the past few years, i slowly showed the weak part of me, the fragile , hopeless part of my soul, for some reason that i dun even noe, Since it was always other ppl who came to me for help, as they always say : If u need anything , and i mean ANYTHING, juz call Eugene, he will surely find a way to help u. Hehe (i'm not bragging, its the truth, u can ask any of the 6M members n they will surely say something like that) Well most ppl say so, i guess its bcoz of my act that they think of it that i'm very dependable on anything, they can tell me their secrets, they can ask me to accompany them for shopping, they can ask me to plan one event after another, and i never reject any of it. Partly bcoz its their request n we've been friends for so long , so i will always try to finish wateva is requested.

And like wat Su lynn said at the last gathering, if u need anything juz call eugene, he's a nice guy, he will do wateva u asked. hehe (that sounded like i'm a slave or so, but i'm fine with that ^^)I ended up being their private waiter for the night.
Even though they said i'm a nice guy(with terrible looks, looks always like a gangster), wat nice guy am i , when she is suffering bcoz of my cowardly act?

If i were to continue to write comments about myself, i can go on forever, n it will end up being a autobiography not a blog entry = =

So i guess i better stop here now, Juz hope for the best in everything n everything will sort out somehow.

I'm really messed up...

Man, i'm really messed up. Everything in my life is going haywire.

I went out with Carin this afternoon, she isn't in a very good situation herself, well not at bad as i'm in now, but still not much better really. So we went out to hang out together. For some funny reason, we r still close as ever after all these years. When we first graduated from primary, she's the 1st person i ever talked on the phone for almost 4 hours (i dun even remember wat we talked about = =) Hehe

After all these years, well when we were in secondary, i guess its partly bcoz we were busy then, we din contact each other as much as we used to. But somehow the last 2 years we became very close again. I'm happy for that ^^ She changed a lot after all these years. And now, i'm in deep sh*t and she's willing to help. I'm eternally grateful to her for that.

Speaking of help, i never thought of this until now, i had a friend who lives in the same block as her. I can ask for his help. I really want an answer now. I'm not giving up on this, i've given up on a lot of things in my life, for one reason, coz i was lazy n dun feel like giving it my all. I dun noe y until now, i still find no reason for me to go all out, doing my best for anything. Well if there were any requests from friends then i will do it, but whether i will do my best is still a question. Now with this , i am forced to think through everything, am i worthy enough for her ? can i take care of her ? is this really ok for me and her ? i dunno, but wat i noe is that now i'm sure, i will do my best to try to save the situation we r in. Lets juz hope everything can be solved peacefully.

My mind is totally messed up , i'm thinking a lot of things at the same time, past,present, future, possibilities . . . . all in this small fragile brain.
I noticed that i am actually quite an emo person. I had been like this for a long time. I never bothered about it, since its a part of me, partly bcoz i was always lazy or not feel like being in a group, but ironically i longed to be in a group so its really juz running aimlessly to n forth inside my soul. I dunno , i'm starting to really not understand myself anymore. I am the shadow of life, i'm one with existence that is useful only to others as a shadow can stand on its on. Thats who i am. and thats what i will be

Since life is now a total mess, how about wishing me that all these problems can be solved quickly and turn my life all around again. ^^ thx

6M reunion...

The reunion was a success... albeit the various set back (not enough food or things not going accordingly)it still can be considered a success. Even more of a success than i could ever wished for.

Ppl who usually dun come such as Lay Hwang came. I was happy to see her again. She really changed a lot. She became taller. (or i became shorter T.T)She's still kinda the same old lay hwang i noe, except for the fact that she's becoming more feminine... I guess thats natural right ? I dunno it felt so weird for me. I still prefer the old lay hwang who kills anyone with juz her glare. ^^ and beats me up juz bcoz i cross her boundary ^^ (ah~~ the good old days) juz to be clear, i'm no sadist k???

Ai-yin did very well this time, i am grateful to her for lending her house as our gathering venue. Her mother n she herself did a lot for us, they prepared some spagetti , briyani rice, tandoori chicken , etc. . . . She was also the game master of the night. She planned a whole list of games for all of us to enjoy. We had fun. (Thx Ai-yin!!!)

Xin khai also did a lot for us. He help us out with the bbqing of foods. He brought over the bbq pit. Vincent helped out with starting the fire. I helped out with faning the coal until red hot. Noel juz stand there idling. . . . Who cares. Well at least the guys all came early to help. I'm happy with that.

Then slowly the guests all arrive... The house is becoming more n more packed. Guess 20+ of us squeezed into one house is kinda a bad idea. But then again we aren't that big sized after all. The girls r looking more n more like girls ^^ (no offence) They look so nice ^^ i guess as time passes girls look more beautiful huh ? its like the flower have fully bloom. They all like flowers on a spring day. Too bad alyssa can't make it this time T.T neither did kim tat ( i really do plan to kill him!!!), and many others who still can't make it.

I wonder how long can we continue doing this ? who else gonna do it besides me ? Everyone is going their own separate paths. Its kinda sad to think we are not gonna be together anymore. Everyone has their own goals. Wat is mine ??? I dunno yet. Still haven't made my decision about it. I guess i will do it one small step at a time. Finish wat is in front of me now and worry about other things later.

And overall that night was suuuuupeeerr fun. Everyone had a fair share of laugh and enjoyed themselves a lot. Including those NS goers. Here i wish u all ns goers all the best in surviving NS n enjoy urself. As they say, all good things must come to an end. When its coming to and end, we took a big group photo. then we promised each other to uploads those photos to fb. And suprisingly i did so after i got back home. haha.

Well everything good that happens will also have anything bad that could go wrong.
My girl sms me asking me to juz become juz friends with her. since her aunt had saw us chatting in my car, (i wonder y did she waited until now only ask her to do so) But i couldn't refrain myself from loving her . I'm all crazy about her. Man, i'm really dead. She's in a deeper problems than me. I dunno about this, i wonder how long can we last.... And this might be my last relationship with anyone. I juz dun wanna get hurt again. I hate getting hurt. but lifes always packed with bumps. . .
n we r bound to fall at a certain part of it.So its better if we start to train ourself to be immune to that pain.... I am going crazy atm. . . Hope she will get her hp back soon. coz i will go crazy if she din reply me soon.

Its getting kinda late now. , problems piling up, and more work to be done la.Time will tell if we r up to this challenge. Lets juz cross our finger and pray.
We had fun this year, can we still have this much fun in the future?
i'll leave this to fate. Wish us will be together forever (for my girls n all 6m classmates), and keep in touch with each other. And hope that the heat for my current situation will subcides soon. Wish me all the best with her.

Its 1.29am, n i'm getting tired , guess thats from working all day at giant. I'm going to slp now. SO wish me to have a nice dream. . . .and try to dream her ^^
haha

1st day of 2010...

1st of all, HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!! to my family and all my friends!!!

Today... I started working at Giant Hypermarket as a pasta sauce promoter.

They din allow me to bring my phone so i had to leave it at home. (Those who received my late reply... SORRY!!!)

I was needed to cook pasta sample for customer's sampling. I was having a hard time doing so... (its not hard to cook the pasta ,but its hard to cook in that place!!!)
The place is so crowded... i din even have access to water anywhere close to where i was cooking. I had to walked all the way to the basin for water.

Then i tried cooking the pasta... Everything went well up to now... Then...
Disaster struck... T.T

There were not much customer so i kept my pasta... Then when there are customers the pasta was cold... But i had no choice but to serve it... (i had to endure the customer's complaint about it being cold n not nice to be eaten.. blah blah blah

I never thought time can move as slow as today... I was eagerly waiting for my watch to strike 8pm,then i can go home ^^

I am tired now (after all i did stand the whole day without sitting down,except for the 1 hour break for dinner)

Btw , this is the 1st post of the year. Hehe.

Overall, this year isn't a really good start for me. Tomorrow's my primary classmate's reunion... Hope all will go well

Wish me luck in tomorrow's reunion!!! ^^