I did it!!!

I guess today's the best day of my life...
I juz got the best news i can ever get...
"You have gotten the scholarship." ...
I was like... "Are you sure ? "

"Yes", he said.

I was like , OH yeah baby....
I finally did it...

A huge rock has been thrown off my chest.
Wish me luck... I will continue to do my best ^^

My first interview...

Today is my interview for the Star education fund scholarship.
Its my 1st interview...
I was so damn nervous...
I was kinda unable to talk really smoothly
i can feel my voice kinda shaking...
Well... there're only 3 of us, me, evon, boon chung.
I was the first to go in. they asked me a lot...
Luckily i was prepared , coz last night my cousin told me a lot about interviews.
I juz stay composed and answer wateva they asked.

I can juz hope now that i will get that scholarship... then i will really happy...
After that... i have to eat my PHP book le = =
Wish me luck XD

lost time....

i've become lost again...
once again after a long while...
i tot i was is heaven....
but soon bcoz of my ignorance
i've been sent to hell again
its like when adam ate that forbidden apple,
he got banished from eden
juz like i got dumped from heaven...

the lost time ...
can't get it back...
couldn't make it better...
am i gonna change ?
or i won't change ?
i dun even noe the answer...
but my heart n soul are suffering....

haiz....
wish me luck in overcoming this ^^

miserable feeling ....

i wonder why must i always made ppl close to me... sad... annoyed...
am i really so unconciously bad ?
i really need to change for the better of myself...
or else i am really doomed to be alone....

well i guess one of the most important thing i have to change is the way i talk...
then also the way i react to things... i need to stop being so emo sometimes.

well thats easier said than done...
but i guess thats something i have to do ...

also try to find ways to keep myself fit ^^
and control my temper
and if can... try to improve on my humor... that way...
i think i can manage to make ppl around me happy...
changing one's habit isn't a simple thing to do ...
it takes time and determination...

i'm really hurt by what serene said... but i can't deny what she had said
yeah i'm boring... coz i always say the same thing , do the same thing, all over until she is bored...
i guess the same situation happened before with wei fen... i always buy the same candy again n again for her...she's fed up with it...
so i need to start to learn to try out new things. and not rely on existing things and hope it will do it...

anyway... for now, i really need someone to be by my side.
well too bad no one is ....
but i think i will be ok...
juz wish me luck... i'll change myself... i need to , i have to , i will...
no matter wat... coz i value the friends i have.
i dun wanna lose them .... i love all of them T.T
so no matter what pls, dun leave me alone.... i can't bear it T.T
haiz.......

tired after work.... XD

Today Fang Yuan called me to work for tonight. So i went there... man tonight's crowd was crazy... one after another... i was so busy i lost track of time... only to find that it was only an hour past since start of work.

I'm really done for tonight...

They asked me to work on coming Sunday ....... its mother's day special.. and i'll bet everything that its gonna be tougher than today .... ==

well regardless of anything...
i still feel really nice... (for wat reason ? it will remain a secret for now)
i wish i can dream about it again . XD

well dream too much of it is bad for health XD
but nonetheless satisfying XD

well its late now.. i'm going to slp. Nitez Wish me luck ^^