Busy busy....

Sorry for not posting lately...
I've been getting busy and busier...
joining the Team building camp....
getting involve in the e-learners group committee...
trying to get along with her....

well i'm going out with her tonight to watch some movies...
its been a while since we last went out together...
well i'm kinda looking forward to it... hopefully i won't mess up anything ==

well for your info, i'm typing this post from my class XD teacher is busy walking around teaching other students about programming while i'm idling around writing this

well for now... thats all...

wish me luck for tonight !!! ^^

Days of neverending mistakes...

This weekend has been a really frustrating weekend...

My sis secretly went to a cyber cafe behind our backs and lie to us... ending up getting me and her grounded = =... u might be wondering.. how so ?
well i noe i have nothing to do with any of this.... but then again my mum was juz being mad at that time... knowing her and myself... i will find my way to get out of trouble...

But trouble 1st come to me.... saturday i already promised her that i'll bring her to pick up her contact lens... but being grounded means i can't go out... which means i'm in trouble.... BIG trouble.... haiz... she's mad at me... very mad... very dissapointed
which makes me feel so miserable.... wat can i do to make her feel happy ?
can i really bring her happiness ? am i really the one for her ? should i think about her instead of my own selfish wish ?

haiz... there's so many problems in life... in my life to be exact....

Dun forget there's also my assignment around the corner... everyone's busy looking for info on how to do that assignment.... i'm having trouble myself....

well no matter wat i'm have to find a way and make my way through it !!!
i will , i have to... so for now i'll go to slp... since its kinda late now and tomorrow i still have class....its gonna be a tiring day !!!

wish me luck!!!!

things are getting better... one step at a time

For some reason...after the long chat at FB... everyone today seems more open and chat around more ... compare to the silent classroom fews days ago...
I guess everybody "warmed up" now ...including me ^^

i've been talking to quite few ppl today... and manage to get to noe a few...
one would be evon from pcghs, and boon chung and also francis... and many other whom i dunno name XD

Well we got our assignment today... we were shocked to noe about the report we were asked to do...everyone was shocked... beyond words... we can only say... we're dead!!

Well nevertheless we started doing something at least search for the data needed...

But i'm so tired now....
going to slp d

Tomorrow's another long day!!! wish me luck!!!

Fun time in college...

Today's has been a hectic day... I couldn't find a car park at INTI today...
I was going mad... until i finally found one spot...
Then i rushed to class... its math class today...
1st class... teacher seems strict... explained the course structure...
and i finally realize... i'm in deep shit!!! (sorry for word used)
Well not only that... she chose me and allyson to be class reps
haiz... no wonder i had bad feelings about today....

well nvm... at least i had fun during the programming class...
or rather... game...
we din really spend the time in the classroom... we were walking around the 5th floor doing a game , she asked us to play.. to get a grip about how lack of info will cause certain things to fail ... etc...

Well after the fun time during the day... today i notice a few of them in fb and we started chatting... and i came with an idea of creating a group...
DIT 2010 group for ourselves... to get in touch with each other and make it easier to inform each other...

hehe i think we are with a very good start.. everyone is warming up now... XD

Well wish me luck tomorrow... there's math class and english class !!! argghh!!!

INTI horror fest 2010

Tonight was INTI horror fest. Its a fun festival with a ghostly theme specially planned for students to enjoy....
They actually sell tickets to enter the fest. but then again... i managed to sneak into it XDXD ok... dun kill me...

Well everyone was dressed up like a ghost or anything thats scary... i even saw someone with a scythe... its kinda cool... there's also a huge butcher knife... like one Ichigo from bleach used. XD

There's also various musical performance and dances... also few games....
I looked at them and saw how they enjoyed it...
I kinda envy the ppl behind this... how they actually plan and make it a success...
how everyone work together...
i'm starting to wonder... am i a team player ?

Haiz... well i dunno ... honestly.. i dunno
i guess in order to be success we have to start early....and i tend to do last minutes job...

haiz... guess thats the reason y i couldn't achieve success...

Well regardless... tomorrow i have class at 8am... so gotta slp early..
wish me luck tomorrow...

Days in INTI

I noe i've stop posting for a few days... I've been busy with INTI
since i juz started it yesterday... and i was busy until i forgotten about my posts

I couldn't sleep the night b4 starting my diploma course.
There's only around 3 girls in my class. they say there might be more ppl coming in...
but i'll see...

For now the class is about 23 ppl.
There's no one i knew from school is studying with me in this diploma...

I felt kinda lonely... but then again i can still meet up with new ppl.

Haiz.... I've been so stressed out that i barely sleep these few days... haiz

Well better wish me luck in getting accustomed to all these new things... college life

For better or worse i gotta study hard and do well... for my future... for her wish to be true... i need to... so wish me luck!!!!

Pushpa's Wedding...

Today's pushpa's wedding dinner.

In the morning, i went to INTI to enroll myself into the IT program which will start from this coming monday (damn.... so fast... kinda not used again)

Then after lunch went to visit Ah ma, she looked so weak compared to the last time i saw her.... but she still could recognize me and tell me she's proud of me of my result....even though i'm not really very satisfied with it.

Then its time for pushpa's wedding dinner....
Mum was wearing a punjabi clothing and my sis wore the same too... me and dad juz wore some casual but semi-formal clothing ....

Well the wedding is kinda grand... there's a lot of tables... and honestly i never beent o a indian's wedding... so kinda hoping to open my eyes...

And guess wat ?
my eyes were wide open, almost felling out ... after the bride and groom arrived
the guests immediately swarm the buffet table... (they use buffet style instead of the table serving) and the queue was so long that we gave up waiting ... we went and get other things such as roti canai, satay , drinks and fruits...
The food are suprisingly nice. Despite the long queue and ppl cutting queue and fight over food.... Overall its a nice dinner.

I finally got to see how an indian actually have a wedding ceremony.... its comprises of many rituals and steps, and finally its all coming to an end today.

I sincerely congratz and wishes the newlyweds couple to have a nice life together and hope to have lil kids soon ^^

Wish me luck too in achieving my goal with studying in INTI... i'm so nervous... since its been a while since i last study.... = =

Life...is always besides death....

I never ever forget how i felt when my grandfathers died....
That kind of feeling is unbearable ... and unforgettable

Now... My grandma... (technically she's my grandma's sister, but i juz call her grandma) has been hospitalized... she's very weak now.... the condition is not good for her.... i dun think she can hold on much longer...

I've been thinking back... to when i was small, where she always smile and talk to me... she was always happy to see , so was i... she always tell me to study hard, and be successful person in the future.... she's been there for me since i was small...
for me... she's my only grandma.

Now she's like that, and i can't do a damn thing about it.
Life is always like that, the moment u take something for granted , it will take that away from u , the moment u lost something, thats when u start to regret...

I juz regret i din spent much time with her, i was too busy doing my own things...
she's always there looking at me, praying for me, wishing me all the best to do wateva i wan.

If i have one wish now, i will wish for her well-being, but thats impossible
so i will wish , for her to leave in peace, with no suffering as she's done enough good deeds, as i'm a living proof of her deeds.

I love u , Ah ma....

Even though ur not my actual ah ma, but ur still the one that look after me since i'm small.

I really sincerely hope from the bottom of my heart for u to be in peace , and u will always be inside my heart forever.

Wish her all the peace and i love her.

RED FM 40 mins in 4 secs,,,crazy and nerve wrecking

Man... the jackpot for the 40 mins in 4 secs has snowballed beyond RM11k....
everyone is fighting for it...
I'm one of them too....

I wonder if i can do it this time...
If i can get that money .... then i dun have to worry about my studies...
and i can also buy my psp.... and maybe give the girls some treats...
well i guess money sometimes are powerful...
but being too money hungry is bad.... since u will be blinded by money and money alone.
i'm juz a guy living by the days.... simple .... yet complicated
i'm juz a pathetic guy...... not too good yet not too bad

let's juz all try our best to try for that !!!!!
Wish me luck!!!! I really need it this time!!!1

Future... Undetermined....

Now i've gotten my results... everyday have been a hectic day...
I have to run around photostating papers...certifying papers...
in order to apply for scholarships... for the courses i wanna apply
And to do so.... i had to make trips back to school to do so...

and it ain't easy.... since they aren't always free to certify things for us
and there's a lot of ppl waiting to certify things.... so it ain't easy...

Haiz.... i kinda hate that feeling of being pushed around doing a lot of things...
i noe its for my own good.... but i'm kinda getting tired of it....

With my result... honestly i'm not totally satisfied with it.... i think i could do better... but its already passed... so i can't change anything... so no point thinking of what if....

today i also went over to Kak Pushpa's house to see her getting prepare for her wedding... my mum went over there to get the henna... its a kind of tattoo, on her hands... and i also had some done on my hands...

Hopefully the henna will turn out good.... or else = = i'm dead....

since it will last a few days....

After looking around and thinking for a while.... i think i'll be going to TAR college to study my diploma in computer science.... its still under my choice courses
so that will do.... though the distance could be a problem....
But its waaaayyyy cheaper than other colleges.... about 1/3 cheaper....
so i can really save a lot from PTPTN loan....

Phew.... well that solves some of the problem.... but there're still more to come...
so i better get prepared myself for it. I will do it... i can do it...
wish me all the luck i need. ^^

Penang Go Festival Carnival....

Since Fri, esplanade is the venue for the Penang international Go-kart and food carnival 2009....

My cousin's selling bread at one of the stalls there... and i went there to help him upon his request.

The whole event... no doubt the cool and nice naming... is juz nothing but a name... the whole event is actually a failure....

Reasons?
Lack of proper advertising...
Lack of information ...
Miscommunication...
Lack of proper planning...
Lack of proper guidelines...
and many many more...

I noe i'm juz there to sell some bread... but sometimes i juz can't ignore how bad things had become... the event was a total mess...

Many customers there wanted to buy things but din noe they must buy the food voucher before purchasing any food.... and some of the customers left bcoz they dun wanna buy a voucher... some juz give up after failing to look for the person selling vouchers...

so the organizers are partly to be blamed for the lack of business for all hawkers there... and we r juz a few that actually came to support this event... many juz din bother...

through this u can see how bad the event was.... and there's a lot of unnecessary changes to the time.... making us even more confused....

Haiz... Even though the event was a letdown...

We still managed to get good business... many came to buy our breads and cakes....
i'm still wondering about how much my pay will be.... since my cousin never state at all....

Well regardless of the amount... salary is still salary.... so i am grateful for wateva amount gven.... hopefully within the next few days.... ^^

Wish me luck in getting up early tomorrow.... i need to fetch shiao mei...to her school.... i'm really tired after work now.... so going to slp ... since i din slp well for the last 3 days... XD

Days of agony finally came to an end....

Its finally that time...
I was at school.... waiting for my SPM result....

A long wait....

Finally, its time... to get that slip....
that will determine my life ahead....

I was holding that slip.... and i felt the whole world crashing down....
I only got 8As.... 2Bs.... while most of my other friends got straight As...

Result slip breakdown as below... :
BM - A
BI - A
BC - B
Math - A+
Add Math - B+
Moral - A
Sejarah - A+
Physics - A-
Chemistry - A-
Biology - A-
1119 - 2A

haiz.... looking at the night newspaper... seeing all my primary friends....getting straight As... and me ... juz at a sit admiring them.... i felt so down... dissapointed.... pressured....

i noe... to her... my result is like godlike.... there's a difference....

but i dun mind about her results... as i dun judge ppl by the books... neither by their looks... its by their action... and reactions....

but for some reason... we kinda had a small argument... ok... maybe a big one...
she was against me in my pursuit to study IT in INTI... and i was trying to make it clear to her that it isn't as bad as she thought....

then .... suddenly.... she gave me a silent treatment....
i was like.... NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO~~~~ not the silent treatment...
then i was begging her to forgive me ... for saying things to harshly...
but until after i drop her off... she still din give me a good answer....

i'm so worried.... i dun wanna lose her juz bcoz of a stupid argument....
maybe its bcoz of my lack of slp last night.... thats y i'm kinda short-fused...
but its also bcoz her result isn't so satisfactory... not even for her...
so she's kinda upset... and maybe i juz aggravate it...
i'm a jerk... i'm an idiot.... haiz....

i dun wanna lost her....

wish me luck in making her better again.... hopefully....i wanna see her laugh as her laughter brings light to my void.... eternal darkness....

The time is here..... Death awaits....

Well its finally that time again....

The time where we painstakingly have to go and collect our result slips...

And it cause us to have sleepless nights .... nightmares....

I totally have no confidence in my results.... totally... none....

i juz hope i will get some decent one... i dun even dare to wink now...

I'm so nervous i can't really slp now.... though i'm tired....
but i still can't make myself slp...

its too agonizing.... T.T

arhhhh!!!!! the wait.... after all these months.... the time has come...
now i wish it won't come so early....!!!!.....

i need more time.... to mentally prepare myself....

haiz....

wish me luck tomorrow ... i need all the luck in the world this time... ^^

Netbook's 1st day

I'm so excited i got the netbook grand prize last night.

I went to school to sought help from my "sifu" in IT... and use some equipments he had there..
i was setting the whole comp up ... for almost the whole morning...
and into the afternoon and finally at night i got it all work and running....

its kinda useful .... though its already an obsolete model... who cares ?
i got it for free... and its working is good enough...
i'm very easy to please... ^^


here's a photo of me from the newspaper cutting


I looked weird ... T.T
i'll be going back to school again to return the things i borrowed from him.
and getting some help on solving the wifi issues....

Wish me luck ^^

my lucky day!!!!

Yesterday and Today's been a hectic day...

i've been running around the whole education fair looking for my courses of interest...
and guess which did i ended up with ?
IT!!! but i was also looking at pharmacy, biotech and any bio related fields...

and with the star as the main organizers... they also had the spin and win contest...
which i spun yesterday and ended up with craps.... tickets to lost world of tambun...for children... = = then a free make up course worth up to RM3800
haiz... thats all not for me...T.T

then today i went there again to try my luck...
and guess wat did i get now ??? I got the grand prize!!!! actually one of the grand prize winner la, later we will have to come back again to draw for which prize we will get.

So i came back around 6.30pm for the draw.... we took turn draw the arrangement no. and i got the 1st... being the 1st to draw has a lot of advantage... there's all the prize available... but there's also a lot of cons... there's too many prize to take...
and guess wat did i drew? a netbook!!!! wow... thats like... o.O i din expect that

i guess thats the message that my ah kongs brought to me saying that i should pursue in IT field.... lol XD guess i'll follow their sign XD

i guess i'll be in tomorrow's newspaper ... again... XD hope everyone will see me
*blushes* hehe

see ya in tomorrow's newspaper !!!!

wish me luck in going for the courses i'm interested

an encounter with the angel of death ....

i'm starting to believe i'm a person with incredible luck...
and i guess both my grandfathers r my guardian angels.

Without these 2... i guess i'm already dead... a long time ago...

Today i was supposed to play badminton with my friends...
i drove my car... using the old mountain road to reach Permata sports centre...
and about halfway on my way... i almost crashed into another car which was trying to turn ... and i managed to escaped unscathed inches from it.... i was totally scared...
everything was blank... i was thinking... of her... and was glad i am still alive...

I always said dieing is nothing.... but when death came knocking on ur door... u will be afraid to embraced it.... thats the fact.... and i juz experienced it.

I still wanna be with her... with my friends... and do all i can before i really die...

I guess i better start driving safely .... for my sake... for her sake... for everyone's sake

Wish i can have a good night slp tonight... and wish me luck in driving safely... and wish me all the best in surviving life ^^

days of nervous breakdown...

The news of when result is coming out has finally been confirms...
11th of March... the doomsday for all form 5 2009

haiz... its so fast... i dun think i've prepared myself...i dunno if i can handle the pressure...
time is ticking.... no time less... time is not enough....

i need help... i'm going hysteric.... losing my mind... !!!!! arghhhh!!!!

Tomorrow i'll be playing badminton with ming wei and co.... its been a while since i last played....
I guess this could help me slim down a bit, in my attempt to keep fit for her sake...

I must do it... or else i'm dead.... i wonder if i should start climbing mountains ?
i wonder if anyone wans to go with me... ? haiz.... i guess i'll stick to badminton and bodybuilding for the moment...

wish me luck in keeping fit again... and hope i can get a good night slp.

Trio's day out and my house mini party

Yesterday... i went for a haircut and wei fen had her hair dyed at Toppers.
I was reluctant to get a haircut though. wei fen and shiao mei kinda forced me into it.

Haiz... anyway... the end look was quite ok... juz a bit weird as i never did had a fashionable haircut... T.T

Well after that, we went over to Kuta Bali, wei fen said she wanna see her bf's best friend and we tagged along... enjoyed the night there , talking like old buddies and drinking XD

Fast forward that to today...

I went back to school to get my leaving certificate... which i asked them to do some correction.... (my weiwen is written like <-- and not wei wen...) and they asked me to come and collect it on 2nd of Jan... and its like... o.O 3rd of march now.

After that, i went over to pick shiao mei and wei fen, to come over to my house. since my aunt and baby have moved to my cousin's house. So the house is empty during the afternoon.

So we asked shiao mei to bring along her laptop and used the wifi in my house. Its kinda fun having girls in my house , with nobody around... (juz to make things straight, there's no extra unnecessary activities happened) We're all mature teenagers.

After that, i sent them all back home... and now... i'm having terrible headaches...

And also, velgeen haven't called me to inform me of my work schedule.... haiz...

Hope the so called new system is working well, and i do wanna start work again soon.

- Shiao mei asked me to keep fit and lose weight... i better do so, and they say i should change my appearance and fashion style... but i have bad fashion sense...
haiz.... Hope she will be with me and guide me....
Wish me all the best in losing weight and gain back my old body... not so fit but still not fat... XD

3 day stay at Vistana service apartment.

I've been away for a few days... staying at vistana service apartment along with my aunt and uncle from singapore.

Its been a long stay there.... there's a lot of story to tell

1st... We've been eating everyday since friday ...
2nd... We've been gambling everyday since friday...
3rd... We've been in air-con rooms everyday since friday...

Thats practically summarized all that happened during these few days.

Ok... I won a lot during gambling... about RM30++ ... loss quite a bit...
I've definitely gained a lot of weight... I'll have to work extra hard at a gym...
And i've definitely have a no-go from her to continue smsing with other girls...
Haiz... i wonder how will i cope with this...? ... Maybe thats wat i really need to change... stop relying on girls to pass time... find other things to do ... and stay loyal to her...

Other than that... we checked out today.... and i have a 2nd training for Fujiz at Eastin hotel ... its about the newly launched Fujiz Gojzi Coffee... which suprisingly taste very good. There's a strong aroma, a soft bitter after taste, and a lingering flavor inside ur mouth after drinking it... sounds untrue ? Well u will have to try it to believe it.

They've changed a bit of the system... all promoters now will have immediate stocks on hand...(2 tea 4 coffee) which really makes it easier for us to promote it off work.... XD Looks like they've really started mass promoting their products... with banners everywhere and penetrating the local coffee houses... they r also targeting supermarkets within this months... I'm looking forward to the progress ... Being part of this is fun... though i din managed to work a lot last month...but with my results coming next week... i do wonder how long will i work this month ??? ....

Well i went out with her later tonight... we went out to the ocean park juz sitting there... cuddling ... and enjoying the time together... and talk about a lot of things... And its been a good night... and with a order from her majesty stating i should slp early (and its not early now...) i better go to slp soon...

Wish me luck in promoting the new product and achieve good sales... ^^

P.S. Chiu yeng, sorry i din sms u today... i'm trying to do wat she's telling me to. i will still reply ur sms , but not too much . i'm sorry. i hope it won't affect our friendship :[