Messed up day...

I'm sick.... sore throat.... I can't really speak... without my throat hurt like hell

I'm really starting to question myself...
Am i really into a relationship?
And how much am i willing to give up ?
How do i be a good bf?
how do i make her feel safe?

There's a millions of questions that i have no answer to it.

Am i having a gf for the sake of having one ?
Am i really juz wanna have a companion ?
Do i really love her ?
Am i fooling with her feelings ?

I'm so desperate now... I can't bear to think ... She's suffering bcoz of me, i'm not being of any help to her... I juz add more burden to her.

She's suffering... From the pressure of her friends, family..
Friends says : R u sure u wanna be with him? He's not a very good guy...
Family says : U cannot be with that guy, u must find and marry a doctor...

She's in a dilemma... so do i...
I'm so unsure of wat to do... i'm lost... i need guidance... Someone PLS HELP!!!!

I need to give her assurance... and give myself confidence...

I need to , i must to , i have to....

DO OR DIE!!! For her sake and for mine.

Wish me all the best in getting her confidence and mine, and wish us the luck to overcome wat lies in from of us.