Life...is always besides death....

I never ever forget how i felt when my grandfathers died....
That kind of feeling is unbearable ... and unforgettable

Now... My grandma... (technically she's my grandma's sister, but i juz call her grandma) has been hospitalized... she's very weak now.... the condition is not good for her.... i dun think she can hold on much longer...

I've been thinking back... to when i was small, where she always smile and talk to me... she was always happy to see , so was i... she always tell me to study hard, and be successful person in the future.... she's been there for me since i was small...
for me... she's my only grandma.

Now she's like that, and i can't do a damn thing about it.
Life is always like that, the moment u take something for granted , it will take that away from u , the moment u lost something, thats when u start to regret...

I juz regret i din spent much time with her, i was too busy doing my own things...
she's always there looking at me, praying for me, wishing me all the best to do wateva i wan.

If i have one wish now, i will wish for her well-being, but thats impossible
so i will wish , for her to leave in peace, with no suffering as she's done enough good deeds, as i'm a living proof of her deeds.

I love u , Ah ma....

Even though ur not my actual ah ma, but ur still the one that look after me since i'm small.

I really sincerely hope from the bottom of my heart for u to be in peace , and u will always be inside my heart forever.

Wish her all the peace and i love her.