Days of agony finally came to an end....

Its finally that time...
I was at school.... waiting for my SPM result....

A long wait....

Finally, its time... to get that slip....
that will determine my life ahead....

I was holding that slip.... and i felt the whole world crashing down....
I only got 8As.... 2Bs.... while most of my other friends got straight As...

Result slip breakdown as below... :
BM - A
BI - A
BC - B
Math - A+
Add Math - B+
Moral - A
Sejarah - A+
Physics - A-
Chemistry - A-
Biology - A-
1119 - 2A

haiz.... looking at the night newspaper... seeing all my primary friends....getting straight As... and me ... juz at a sit admiring them.... i felt so down... dissapointed.... pressured....

i noe... to her... my result is like godlike.... there's a difference....

but i dun mind about her results... as i dun judge ppl by the books... neither by their looks... its by their action... and reactions....

but for some reason... we kinda had a small argument... ok... maybe a big one...
she was against me in my pursuit to study IT in INTI... and i was trying to make it clear to her that it isn't as bad as she thought....

then .... suddenly.... she gave me a silent treatment....
i was like.... NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO~~~~ not the silent treatment...
then i was begging her to forgive me ... for saying things to harshly...
but until after i drop her off... she still din give me a good answer....

i'm so worried.... i dun wanna lose her juz bcoz of a stupid argument....
maybe its bcoz of my lack of slp last night.... thats y i'm kinda short-fused...
but its also bcoz her result isn't so satisfactory... not even for her...
so she's kinda upset... and maybe i juz aggravate it...
i'm a jerk... i'm an idiot.... haiz....

i dun wanna lost her....

wish me luck in making her better again.... hopefully....i wanna see her laugh as her laughter brings light to my void.... eternal darkness....